The loving kindness meditation exercise actually made a significant improvement to my mood. At the moment of the exercise I was feeling tense, stresses, and annoyed. I felt like this was the best time to meditate; due to the fact I was feeling all kinds of negativity around me. It took me awhile to memorize the sentences, but eventually I got the gist of it and was able to remember the most important words. I started feeling calm after about 5 minutes and I continued to do the meditation exercise. I usually do not meditate more than 5 minutes, but I felt this one had my full attention. It definitely served as an antidote for my anger that I was feeling. Lately I have been feeling anger and a lot of stress, so this exercise helped me a lot. I feel that I let the anger take over my heart and my mind, and I realized it was just making me sick inside to feel that way.
When it comes to the Integral Assessment I feel that my psychospiritual and interpersonal are aspects of my life that have been giving me a lot of difficulty. I feel that I have lost who I am spiritually and personally and need to gain it back. It is scary to lose who you are, and the scariest part is when you realize it. I am taking one day at a time, but I am sure in the next few months my level will increase and I will find my way back. I am lost right now, but I will eventually find my way back. Doing meditation, like the loving kindness exercise, I could definitely find my way back. It will be hard, but challenge is always a good thing. Sometimes you have to work for what you want.
~Nancy Lasprugato
Hi Nancy, hope your week is going well. I really felt that the loving-kindess exercise has a great meaning behind it. I have been really focusing on being more compassionate to myself and to others since beginning of this class and it has helped my anger and stress levels. I think that if you just take baby steps you will get there-that goes for spiritually and personally. Have a good week, Ashley
ReplyDeleteIt truly amazes how we can do one exercise one week and do so well then the next week just have a hard experience. I thought I had it going last week but this week was a little difficult for me. A lot of work ahead of us and I have had a bad week so I am going to try again maybe I will have better results.
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ReplyDeleteI hope that your week is going much better by now! It sounds like you have come to a lot of realizations about yourself and are working your way back to where you want and need to be. You will get there, stay the course! I really like what you said near the end of your blog post that sometimes you have to work for what you want. That could not ring any truer! Sometimes the hard work makes the reward seem that much sweeter.
Heather Reynolds
One of the first step to recovery it admitting there is a problem. Since you have recognized you have not been feeling like yourself I think that means you are not happy and are ready to change. I have felt that way before and I does make a difference in how you move forward and how you live your life after. I think you are well on your way to being a better happier you, good luck :)
ReplyDeleteI also understand when you say you are not feeling like yourself. I have gone through that period for a long time and didn't even realize it. Recently I have realized it but didn't know the best way to help myself. After doing these weekly exercises, I am finding that it is helping me find my way back. As you know, it will not be an easy road, but it will be well worth it.
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